The Midwest took a huge hit in flooding again this year. Whole towns have been swallowed up, and may not reappear. Disasters abound at an alarming rate. Landscapes are changing, geographically, politically and socially. Some say it is a dark day. I can attest I have seen some disturbing signs in the agriculture ranks as well. I used to witness more honorable actions and compassionate expressions of kindness and understanding. It hurts my heart to say, that I see an increasing regard for money and status, whereas in the past, it seemed only folks we knew had low self esteem, would opt for lying about what an animal brought at auction, or their genetics. It isn't that in ag you felt ethically above other industries, it was just that your hopes and thoughts are so often conversing with God, you had more grace to give I think.
So what is happening now? Is the work too hard, mentally or physically, is witnessing the high dollar farm sales to developers and big business, then watching those people go off and relax and travel tugging at your heart now? You feel you deserve a break from the barrage and misconceptions about the industry? We see new laws that don't understand the true repercussions of their existence, because they are based off of emotion and not enough fact finding or calculations? The finger pointing seems too much. People spouting off instead of taking the time to look inside themselves and figure out truly why do they think this way, is it right, is it about Love or Fear. We all struggle with this, we are one in this tug of war, it always begins with me and you, not them over there.
So what do I want. First, Love of self so I can truly be at peace and love others for exactly where they are, without judging them. I have not walked in their shoes, if you have been told all your life something is blue, you are not going to for a second believe otherwise, unless, you are open to a new possibility, am I open minded enough, are they, is it worth a conversation, or just a hug?
Second, think/feel and be present enough, to give "it" the time it's due, estimate the impact, and find a smile in it. Damn it, I do make a difference. And, yikes, these two "wants" give me enough to focus on, for like, ever.
So much easier to spout what I really don't like/want in the moment:
Well, I can positively affect climate change in some area, my yard, my house, my family, my thoughts. I can do it. I can love you without even knowing all about you. I just need to keep practicing. Baby steps are just as good as giant leaps, dang life is a miracle, for goodness sakes, we exist here, on this wonderful, mystery of a planet, in a massive universe, there, I feel better already. How could I have forgotten the beautiful, miracle of us?
Now, My little ol soul is dancing in the light, cause this is not all there is, and we are all gonna be just fine. I am hugging you virtually right now!
Life on Gravel
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City girl sharing stories of a life full of country glitter and other shit.